for a beautiful bond is form where two individual tie thier hearts.....

rmbr wen he promises to nvr make u cry...

rmbr wen she says he alway's be her baby boy...

rmbr wen he'll do anyth to catch her attention...

rmbr wen she dresses up to impress him...

rmbr wen both made a promise to understand n trust....



now take a step back....we're all those part of a procedure...

b4 the pain....or we they simple words u memorize n recite.....

i may nvr be able to understand y such occur to evry relationship....

maybe its juz true.... luv is not enuf....to make things work...



but if he loves, he'll sacrifices for ur happiness....

he'll appreciate u

he'll argue n irritate u


he'll remind u of how impt u are in his
life...


he'll make an effort to remind u that ure
rmbred...

so DOES HE?



wat is stated maybe true or false....still argumentative...

but do ask urslf..... does the one u love , love u for who u are....

or try to chg u into smth ure not....

if u spent the past few min readin to this crap....ure half way there...



if u deserve sm1 beta than its as so,

if u luv sm1, let them go...

if they come back, its foreva

if they're gone, its simply meant to be....



for i admire those who keep thiere lite of luv burnin....

in thier heart..simply not juz physical bonding....



luv urslf...b4 u luv another......heeee

i didnt noe how i got all angry.....in rage i shouted.... y was i so mad.....

i didnt want to shout at them....but i did.....i was so mad....





i saw this guy b4 the train door open....i was pointin suzan to the
deck opp..... he was aggitated as he was infront wen i was
pointing.....n all i did was not to notice him.....

i trip over the guy shoe....or he tripped me.... so i juz continued
walking..... he was mad as i didnt aknowledge his presence.... he
tapped me from behind n shouted at me....i said "sori" n i walk....



all he needed was to be seen..... as he feels invisble to the
public......almost impossible to be seen thru the bare human eye....



oh yesh....all i gave him was an aknowledgement.....but khai juz had to gv him the attention........



these are the living ghost....they are only daring wen ure scared of
them.....for me i c rite thru them....thier insecurity......their
lost.....they are vulnerable.......invisible......



thus if u make them feel "seen",,,, the'll come back for more..... for i pity such ppl.....



i was mad.... at that time...

as nth hv chg.....i can c wat other's barely noe....it so painful....as
these ppl then are against ma words or action...till they noe wat i
already KNEW.....then they begin to understand ma action wich they qn
ealier....

n im not expectin any1 to understand wat im tryin to say..... but all
im askin for is for u to trust ma actions......coz smthin i juz cant
tell/ hv no time to tell.....but i noe....i noe wat im doin..... n if u
noe beta, correct me where im wrong.....



i feel blessed.....

amin....

afta ma 19th bdae....evryth seems to be in the right path for me....yes
im strugglin wif skool n evryth.... but overall im happy...



khai n ky probably having fun at indon....wish im there
too....considerin how much i need a holiday....beautiful
beaches....star studded skies...n sunsets.....im juz that kind of
guy.....lol



n yayid called.....like finally bro..... oh...2006 is over in 2 days....n welcome 2007....



n yeah...ma horscope says i shud be more +ve



hahhahaha....thats it....



im OUTz

afta ma 19th bdae....evryth seems to be in the right path for me....yes
im strugglin wif skool n evryth.... but overall im happy...



khai n ky probably having fun at indon....wish im there
too....considerin how much i need a holiday....beautiful
beaches....star studded skies...n sunsets.....im juz that kind of
guy.....lol



n yayid called.....like finally bro..... oh...2006 is over in 2 days....n welcome 2007....



n yeah...ma horscope says i shud be more +ve



hahhahaha....thats it....



im OUTz

for all the sadness i can think off n write.....it all diminised wif a click of a button.....

so here... im writing of how gr8ful i am to be here....sittin in this
chair.....surfing thru ma tots.... n being able to smile lookin back at
wat hv begun n ended is the past close to 3 yrs of ma poly life..... oh
yes...its comin to an end soon....for i will take a leap to another
chap on another page....



for all the burnin flame that has burned or warm ma heart....it is all
worth to this there... im gr8ful for evry1 i hv met....share ma
tear...ma joy n laughter..... i wanna be able to c ur smiles n tears of
joy wen i proudly leave this campus.....3 yrs....how fast time flew
by....im countin down to wat i hv left.... n im happy.... i hope i will
always be....



to sham n tma.... pls do not doubt wat i hv to offer....i luv u
guys.....from the bottom of ma heart..... lets juz say... im juz goin
thru a face of learnin...but ma heart n passion will always be wif u
guys out there....



for ma belove pusaka seni n andayu..... yes....uve been the flame of ma
life.... the apple of ma eye..... i hv grown thru journeys wif u
guys....all so sweet n memorable in ma mind..... all im askin for is an
openess in heart.... to hv visions...to achieve all 2gether..... dun
eva let any setback fail u.....instead.... let it be a stepin stone to
strive on..... for i hv always believe in u, me n us.....thanks for
always makin it work.... i luv u guys......



amin....



for i nvr regreted a day....wen i step into the doors of this campus,
tho academically it is not satisfying.... i cant help it...its kinda
too late.... i hope to explore n exel in a course that i wud
luv.....but juz not this one i guess.... but evry moment...evry
bond....evry fwenship i foster....tho its small....but it add to
complete the puzzle of ma heart.....



for i cry.....of pain....of soon partin...

but ma heart smiles in resenment....

i luv u all...all ma fwens.....no matter from whr ive met u...or
wen..... but i really do luv u..... n im sori if im unable to make
time.....for a call....a msg..... but it doesnt mean ur 4gotten.....



once a fwen, always will n always be a fwen....

no matter thru black or white.....

thick or thin.....

im blessed....

its all in the dark...as i move as a shadow behind evry stinge of possibility available....

i realise maybe its here where i belong alone in the dark..... fear u
may ask is nvr a factor i take into consideration as it killss me to
fear wats comin....



its strange how identity switch plays a role in our life....take for example two budds....

a- mr nice guy

b- the "mean guy"



to woo a gals heart a will try to be the mean guy n b will instead try
to be mr nice guy.... its true..... its juz wierd...why we pretend to
be smbody else...maybe we' juz fear rejection thus we duplicate our
lovable fwen's characters n wat we adore abt them... in hope that the
gal will luv us for wat we are.....but again...arent we're lyin to
ourslves...hahaha...



i noe i wanted to write abt the sydromes ... but i guess juz not tday....i noe3...soon aite...

so much in ma head.....im all tired.....i wrg abt ma priorities...but cant blame maslf for ma passion....



im missin ayid n nad so so much....

i barely even meet them a call or even an sms....sedihkan..



wif me still ard holding on....i dunno how will i pull thru this.....a part of me juz learnt to let go....iklaskan je....



finally today tmoarts trainin....fifi n fiqa will be dancin...fun to c
them dance...n i had a blast dancing wif fiqa the whole day....juz wish
evry1 was more lively....but i guess evry1's juz tired.....haiz....



i donno much but i behind ma skool werk....i need to buck up....if not i'll be in deep shit....

again having prob wif adaptin to skool....



ma med check up comin up....wanted to hv a get away to indon afta
dat...but it seems impossible....ma mum wud want me ard for raya
celebration....haiz....there goes ma awaited vacation...if oni she
knew..... but i guess she's rite smhow....



tho i noe wat im capable of....ma ambitions n aspirations.....but i oso
noe where i stand....n how much say i hv...so ive decided to
flow....who care whether im happy rite...as long evry1 else is
fine.....hahaha....how weird the world is.....im barely awake...but i
noe i muz smhow start of ma pile of werk....or at least sort wat i hv
to do......god...help me....



astaghfirullah....